Some personal thoughts on ADHD and stimulant meds

I’ve been doing things all these years to try to alleviate the ADHD with little success. Things are only marginally better with biomed. I haven’t tried everything – I’m calling my doc to see if we can try hydergine (he’s already on 2 other non-Rx nootropics but I’ve read that hydergine in combo with other nootropics is like night and day). I’ve been doing biomed for over 4 years and haven’t made any headway with it so I’ve decided that if I can’t take care of it without stimulants then I will try them when he gets to the grade where grades matter which is, I think the 4th grade. I have a couple years still to work on it.

In many ways, I feel like autism masked his ADHD.  As he recovered from autism, his ADHD just got worse. Like we had been able to blame the autism for so much until the autism wasn’t there to blame anymore.

I admit to sometimes wondering if I’m just doing him a disservice by continuing to wait. If you know anything about ADHD, language issues are quite common and his pragmatics just aren’t great – something I used to attribute to autism until I learned how prevalent it is in ADHD and realized that is the last of his autism I needed to get out that is just a toughy. Getting him to speak was easy.  Getting him to speak and comprehend at least somewhat close to typical, totally different…  I often wonder if these would solve his problem and he wouldn’t have to play catch up so hard.

Speaking to others with ADHD and having them tell me that the first time they started their ADHD med they finally felt normal really makes an impact. Hearing them tell me how the world finally righted itself and everything made sense because of their meds does give me great pause.

I dunno what the answer is. Part of me is just too chicken to even give the meds after doing biomed for so long. I don’t want to put something like stimulants into him not knowing what the long term effects are.  Another part of me feels like I’d just be a huge hypocrite if I gave them, I used to be one of those people that thought stimulants were a crutch of bad parenting. If I just find the right biomed combination, the right key, find the root of what’s happening…  And then another part of me feels like I could be giving him something right now that could potentially make it all go away and I’m not; and wondering just how bad of a mom that makes me.

It’s a daily struggle to know what the right thing is. I do feel like he’s just too young to be taking stimulants and that’s my main driving force behind doing everything I can before going to meds.  I don’t have a lot of confidence that I can avoid that, though.  From my answers on the Connors test, wow.  He’s got it bad.

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2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Anonymous
    Apr 16, 2011 @ 10:09:49

    Why would you feel like a hypocrite? You've educated yourself to his condition and his needs and no doubt did everything in your power to make him well. (Probably put yourself in a financial hole doing it) You're the first person to always remind us of using good sense. Sometimes medicine is necessary. You can always try it and take him off if you don't like it. It's not a forever-commitment. But it might give you a nice window of opportunity to teach him some strategies. Tom was on adderall for a while, and I didn't feel guilty. It seemed to really help alot at first then started fluctuating too much for me to feel comfortable enough to continue with it. Sometimes it takes alot of tweaking and trying different meds…he was on way too much of a roller coaster as it was. I'm not opposed to revisiting it later on down the road. But that's just me. The success you and your son have enjoyed is much due to the fact that you're an outside-of-the-box thinker. You'll make the right choice ; )-Tammy

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  2. Cheryl
    Apr 16, 2011 @ 14:12:42

    Thanks, Tammy.

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